June 2005 - Posts

We are not worthy

Portrait of dear coupleToday I went with an outreach team to a colony in the remote outskirts of Juarez; a place called Granjas del Desierto or “Farmers of the Desert.” The team was taking family portraits much like we did in February so I went along as the logistics coordinator and general facilitator. Early in the morning, God gave me a message for the team which I shared on the bus before discussing the logistics of the day. It was a further development of an idea that has been very influential in our lives and is basically as follows:

Pastor Raphael and familyThere are essentially two worldviews; the biblical worldview that describes God as Creator, Father, and Savior, and the atheist or “weak God” worldview which holds that there is no God and even if there is, he doesn’t care, is capricious, or is just some impersonal force. In the second worldview people (especially poor people in the third world) are merely products of biology. People breed and poor people are just a burden on society that must be managed with social and political programs. But in the biblical worldview every person, rich or poor, is a special creation of God that is precious in His sight. Psalm 139:13-16 describes how God knew us before we were born and that we were carefully crafted by Him. The implications of that truth are vast. Another way to see it is that God, long ago decided that He wanted a friend with Him in eternity that had a specific personality and so He created an individual. All of us are unique and have distinct personalities. Each person, rich or poor, “abled” or disabled, has qualities of personality that God desires, so He caused a unique person to be born with those qualities. I always think of our dear sister Anna, who is about 50 years old, but permanently at a six-year-old level. We have known her for decades and know her as a unique and precious personality who, after the resurrection, will be liberated from her physical limitations and will be uniquely “Anna, friend of God.”

God created each of these precious persons with freedom. In this freedom, true love can occur; but also true rebellion. This is the risk God is willing to take in order to have true friends. Unfortunately, everyone except for Jesus Himself is a true rebel. It is human nature. But even in light of this rebellion, God’s love is unwavering. Romans 5:8 says, “But God demonstrates His own love toward us, in that while we were yet sinners, Christ died for us.” In spite of the fact that each unique individual, precious in His sight, has rebelled, God has taken the initiative and given the ultimate demonstration of His love and His desire for relationship with each individual. 1 John 4:9-10 says it again, “By this the love of God was manifested in us, that God has sent His only begotten Son into the world so that we might live through Him. In this is love, not that we loved God, but that He loved us [first, without our meeting any prior condition] and sent His Son to be the propitiation for our sins.” This is the Gospel; the good news.

So there we were on the bus, headed out to the Farmers of the Desert to share with them this incredibly good news of new life in Jesus. Were we going on a whim or because it seemed to us like a good idea? No! God, in His love for these people who are each individually precious in His sight, put together a team of people months before and sent them specifically to share this good news. God was entrusting this task to us. What a high honor! What a great responsibility! We are not worthy of so great a task, and yet He chooses to use weaklings like us to share His love. Because if we will go in obedience and get out of the way, then He will speak through us to those individuals He has been preparing to hear the message. As a result five people, that I am aware of, came to know Jesus Christ as their Lord and Savior today!

The psalmist says he would rather be a lowly doorkeeper in the house of God for a single day than live the life of a sinner for a thousand days. I am beginning to understand this. If I knew that I was truly useful to my God, even in a humble task and even for a day, it is enough. And yet God is calling His children to be much more than that. We are called to be co-laborers with Him. All of this is perfectly expressed in 2 Corinthians 5:17-20, “Therefore if anyone is in Christ, he is a new creature; the old things passed away; behold, new things have come. Now all these things are from God, who reconciled us to Himself through Christ and gave us the ministry of reconciliation, namely, that God was in Christ reconciling the world to Himself, not counting their trespasses against them, and He has committed to us the word of reconciliation. Therefore, we are ambassadors for Christ, as though God were making an appeal through us; we beg you on behalf of Christ, be reconciled to God.”

Praise God!

--Thaine

The fields are white for harvest

Yesterday we were in the outdoor market in downtown Juarez. We had three teams of families who made balloon animals for kids and shared the gospel with whomever would listen.

Here's the amazing thing...the people in Mexico are HUNGRY to hear the good news that God has provided a way of reconciliation and that they can live in relationship with Him with a clean conscience. Instead of walking on the other side of the street or looking the other way, or saying "no thank you," or worse, they come in droves and stand waiting patiently to hear the story of Salvation. They listen with eagerness and politeness and then want to hear more! One man, about 55-60, stood to the side for at least 10 minutes waiting for us to be finished. When we were free he came up and said, "I want to become a Christian." Another team had a woman do the same thing and just weep as she heard of the depth of God's love for her. These people weren't drunk or deranged. They were normal, respectable people who were tired of bearing their burdens of sin. Wow. I am in awe of God's amazing love for us sinful, loser, failure humans. Romans 5:8 says, "But God demonstrates His own love toward us, in that while we were yet sinners, Christ died for us." I can CLEARLY see why God has moved our family, the Hutchins family, and several individuals here. This is where things are happening! As Jesus said, "the harvest is ready and the laborers are few."

--Thaine

We have arrived!

We’re here!
We can hardly believe it, but we now live at the House of Cornelius in Fabens, TX. The whirlwind that took shape through God’s steady preparation of our family and lifted us high above our prior lives and expectations has touched down in a new world. As we slowly spin down, the dust is settling to reveal a picture; a picture of God’s unfathomable loving kindness. We are not worthy of such an incredible opportunity to preach the gospel and minister to the poor and needy, all in a setting of peace, beauty, and fellowship. As Rosemary put it, “Mom, this is our home! Where have we been all this time?”

Fierce opposition
1 Peter 5:8 says, “Be of sober spirit, be on the alert. Your adversary, the devil, prowls around like a roaring lion, seeking someone to devour.” Getting here was not without trials. The enemy tried many things to discourage us from going and to discourage us while on the road. The incidents and their timing were such that it is clear to us we faced spiritual opposition. The attacks began less than a week before we were to leave!

Next we began to be discouraged by finances. We stood, albeit timidly, on His word and testimonies, knowing that He will supply. The morning before we were to leave God led me to ponder how we will so readily trust in a paycheck. But what lies behind that paycheck is merely a company, products, sales people, and an economy. We all know how fickle those things can be! He then led me to consider His unending faithfulness. How much more could we trust our Loving Father than a measly, earthly paycheck? In prayer I asked that He would give me a renewed sense that we were in His will and also that He would give us a check that day. He answered the first part by bringing a family friend by the house. We talked about what we were about to do. As I recounted what God had done and was doing, I could hardly keep the tears back as His wonderful confirmation of our being in His will came about in our conversation. Shortly after that the mail came…no check. But later in the day I had to go to the IFM office to do some last minute computer network tasks. There, on the table in the office, was an envelope containing a gift check for our family that had been dropped off earlier by the giver. I had told no one except my Loving Father of my request. God had answered my prayer precisely and in such a way that His hand was clearly evident. Praise God!

Packing the truckDaniel holding lizardsThe next morning we met some friends at the IFM office who were to help us drive to Texas. We loaded last minute things into the moving truck and set off. About 10 miles north of Pueblo, Colorado (about 3 hours of driving) we were a bit spread out. The truck was first. Our Subaru followed, driven by our friend Josiah Brooks. And our van was a few miles behind having just stopped for a potty break. Kathy Hart was driving and Erika and four of our kids were in the van when a plastic bed liner from a pickup truck in front of them lifted up into the air and struck the two bicycles on the roof of the van. The bikes were locked onto the roof rack with a cable so they didn’t come off. Instead, they swung around the back and smashed out the rear window of the van. The force also tore the stock luggage rack mostly off the roof, leaving holes and dents. We praise God that no one was injured, nor even scratched. In fact, although the glass shattered into thousands of tiny pieces, not one made it into the passenger area. All of the glass was in the luggage area or on the road. Of course, one can easily imagine how much worse it could have been. Kathy kept her cool and every one was safe. Praise God!

Daniel and broken windowThe driver of the pickup went back to retrieve his liner. Kathy approached him and they ended up talking with him, sharing the gospel with him, and praying for him. The ladies got all his information and license plate number. But he had no insurance and did not join us in talking with the State Patrol. Unfortunately for him, they will track him down and ticket him for that among other things. We have comprehensive insurance on our vehicle so it is covered and is at this moment at a body shop being repaired. Shortly after the accident I called my insurance company to ask what the next steps should be. They told me that they would cover the damage and then take the guy to court to recover their losses. This put me in a very difficult situation. The guy had no insurance because he couldn’t afford it. And now, because I can afford it, he will be sued in court to pay for something else he can’t afford. I know that’s how the system works and that it is “fair” but I had no peace about it at all. I couldn’t imagine Jesus taking a guy to court over an accident of all things. But I felt I should proceed anyway. A few days later when the insurance adjuster called and got the story, she said they would not pursue the guy in court because there was no way they could prove he was negligent. It was truly an accident, so they would cover our vehicle and leave the guy alone. Praise God!

After the accident report which took several hours, we went into Pueblo for lunch and to Home Depot for plastic and duct tape. The rest of the trip was uneventful until just outside Socorro, New Mexico. I was driving the moving truck and was the first vehicle. The van followed and then the Subaru. I was talking to Joe Krejsa who was in the passenger seat. I was looking at him briefly when he yelled, “Look out!” I turned just in time to see the hind quarters of what must have been an elk, maybe a skinny horse, but of an animal whose back was level with the bottom of the truck’s windshield, fully six feet off the ground. I was in the right lane and it was calmly sauntering across the road. It was mostly in the left lane by the time I saw it, so I was able to ease the truck to the right around the beast. Erika saw it from the van behind me and was astonished. I can only imagine what disaster would have occurred had I hit it, or had I reacted too quickly to Joe’s shout and the fearful sight. We made it safely. Praise God!

Driving the moving truckNext, as we approached El Paso, Texas, we came upon the scene of an accident between an SUV and a semi-truck. Large parts of the SUV were scattered all over the road. I had to slow down and steer the giant moving truck carefully around them slalom-style. This was about 3:30 in the morning.

Finally, we decided to stop in El Paso to fuel the truck. It was almost empty and we still had about 30 miles to go. We got fuel without trouble. But when we went to get back on the road, we got separated by a long traffic light. I was driving the truck, saw headlights behind me, and continued on. Unfortunately, the rear two cars got lost! They wandered around various highways and exits, talking to Joe by cell phone, until we finally met up in downtown Fabens, having taken two different highways to get there. By this time it was nearly dawn and I was beginning to wonder if we would ever get there. With the first rays of the sun, and the songs of seemingly thousands of different kinds of birds (more on that later), we arrived safely at the House of Cornelius where rooms and beds were all prepared and waiting for us. Praise God!

--Thaine